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in those times when the shadows slowly creep up around us, preparing to surround us, your company keeps me safe from the solitude that i hate. making their way into my mind, they try to implant fear: that one day i'll wake up and you'll have disappeared. that i have nothing on which i can depend. that you offered me a love you'd never lend. this is my conscious self. just another card i was dealt. to always think the worst. i think my mind works in reverse. a smile won't make me believe; you can flash your teeth, but its a smirk that i perceive. my head's not in the clouds, my foot's not in my mouth. maybe i'm down to earth, but i've searched the world and can't find my worth. someone please find a cliche that actually helps me with the pain. i am dysfunction, broken beyond repair. please save your pity. i am confinement, better left alone. not a friend in this fuckin city. i want no part of it, my loneliness: my bliss.